When you're gone I'm missing you to death..

Today was Eli's first day of work at Taco Bell.
I hope he got enough sleep last night and that he had a good time learning.
I bet he looks so cute behind the register all head to toe in Taco Bell stuff.
hehe
I miss him so much that no one understands except him.
[ Its hard to breathe sometimes because just thinking about how much I miss him crushes my heart.
And I can look around my whole house and point out memories there.
Its not fair that we have to wait all over again.
Lately I'll just sit in a spot where we were before and stare out into nothing or close my eyes and pretend we're still there.
But I just end up rocking myself to sleep.
Then I dream about it.
Its like a neverending cycle of just needing him to be here.
This wouldn't be worth it if he was any other guy.
Hes the only one I can do this for..the only one I want to do this for.
I think he is the only one for me.. I couldn't imagine anyone else. ]

Yesterday I hung out with Chris and Marissa.
We went over to his house to eat and then we all stayed at my house.
We had a lot of fun just talking and being us. lol
I love those kids.